© 2004 Rachel Lynn Sebastian
Seems like minutes…when I’m talking to you:
And like forever since we started.
Only God knows what you want to do.
‘Cause all I know is where my heart is.
Stop, looking in my eyes as if you’d never seen my soul.
Stop, talking in a way as if we’d never kissed before.
Don’t take from me the dearest thing that I have ever known.
I won’t apologize for being genuine…I can’t let go.
I think about you more and more each day.
And in the early morning hours,
when I know you’re still awake;
I fantasize you’re by my side, holding me tight.
And then, with open eyes I realize; this isn’t right.
Told you I trust you. But I don’t want to
put my tender heart in places you’re not sure to go.
The phone rings - my heart jumps. Maybe it's him. Maybe he wants to come over, hold me in his arms and beg me to be in his life again. As a woman, I had never been on the receiving end of the 'let's just be friends' scenario. I had never had to look into the eyes of a lover and mutually pretend like we had never shared a single intimate moment. I won't do it; I can't do it. I can't let go.