originally ‘Making Muziq’ (2004)
© 2005 Rachel Lynn Sebastian
I’m holding on to every word you speak.,
and it’s a tragedy; can’t you see,
You have me held in your captivity?
Can’t run away. I have to stay.
Just like you always say,
“I need your energy, without it I will fade away.”
It’s torture. You bring me to ecstasy,
draw me to tears, it plays with my soul.
I’ll never know your true intention,
hold your sole affection, so please let me go.
Can’t be your friend; the madness has to end.
We all know where you go and where you’ve been.
It’s hard for me to comprehend it.
I have a fear the message
I hold dear is not quite clear.
For I had tears run down my face when you said,
“Silence, I don’t need to hear it.”
Let me go before I lose all control.
Originally, I wrote this song was called 'Making Muziq'...it was a poetic, symbolic expression of my sexual desire and frustration towards a man. It expressed a woman's innate emotional response to her intimate escapades...our attachment to the physical: a torturous endeavor if not met with equal affection.