*I hated choices. It seemed that we were each uncontrollably inundated with them: how much effort we want to give, where to go next, how to communicate something difficult, whether to to stay in a relationship, what to think about a situation, if it's okay to really breathe and sometimes even - when to give up.
It's by these choices that I could celebrate my free agency on earth – and it's by these same choices that I could live or die. The lesson for me though, surprisingly, was not about making the right decision for the desired outcome. The lesson was about how I chose to live on the way there.
I'm Rachel. I used to think I knew everything (I still think that).
The only difference now is that I understand that “knowing” something (having rigid beliefs) is no longer workable in my life. And I am now fearlessly creating the life I want to live - fiercely defending my freedom to recreate myself and choose anew in every moment – no longer hating – but loving my freedom to choose.
I was age 34 on August, 28th 2015 – the day I was diagnosed with infiltrative ductal carcinoma...read more.
These last two years have felt both devastating and life-saving. There was a need to face all of the darkness, fear and shadows inside in order to remember who I was, who I am and who I've always been.
Finally, after 1.5 years of collaboration with Olympic Peninsula producer and my dear friend, Jeremy Cays, we are releasing the song that encompasses the message of this journey: my journey. After much deliberation we have decided on a name: Rachel's Song.
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